and the new sporadic Moon

On Sporadic free mind nights, I glean hope
and listful wish for merriment and the melting innovative
wash
of inevitable crisis overcome
by intelligent design fantastical
and moral awakened ’man of the dirt

On erratic scream in the coming dark days I curse
evolution
creating this beast
and what sociopathic greed malevolent stare into extinction and laugh
with bursting paper green eyes
and wish it never envisaged

On habitual sunken eyes of the afternoon rise
I sit idly slouching by
and watch madness curtail madness uncoil
within our blackened hearts
and frostbitten toes of the retreating soul
and stupefy the mind
with unfathomable awe at my impossible present... Being

And the New Moon sets the eternal cycle in motion once more

Silence

Sometimes when it's under cover quiet
in the lonesome peaceful night
when the newest scam's done shouting at our eyes and fried egg brains
and the beast's stopped propagating poisoned air
and the vans and yellow coats and blackened teeth are gone for now
For now
we can hear our own voices
maybe silent almost imperceptible
screaming and writhing to be free or fight or cry
from constant noise and daily trauma and why is everything dying or dead or outrageously preposterous rich
in the daylight safe sunlight
where compassion supposedly prospered

Defense Rations

I'm addicted
                                                  to doing nothing
or flushing my life away into the plastic ocean                   to swim with cigarette ends
                                                                                                                                         and endless bottle caps
and a corked archipelago
stained the colour of ethanol blood
                                                                                  all the while telling myself                     that it'll work out
living your dreams in your imagination               
                                                                                                                                is ok
when it's as vivid as mine
                                                                                                                                                             or yours.

                                                                                   I once read
that Einstein worked 4 hours                                                                                            a day
                                                      and he was a frizzy geinus
        so why shouldn't that be true
of me                                                                                                                                                     or you
           i ask myself
                                                                                    though i know i know sure, i know
it's all conciliatory lies
                                           comforting shameful delusionary conciliatory lies
                                                                                                                                and yet it still remains
the rational defense of a lazy beanpole
                                                                 trapped for a quarter century
                                                                                                 in what if's and drowning imaginary possibilities
and christ       
                               what if you actually make it?

Queen Bee

Sometimes I sit and drink a gallon of wine
to see the blackout glorious forgetting stench
of a night lost to the ether
beautiful sorrow sinking sinking sinking sinking is that a working well
are you sure we'll float
crying nonetheless
buoyant steady recreation
we'll wake up tomorrow
maybe more fulfilled or maybe horribly worse
but does it matter
the medicine's sequestered itself
your pain's been buried hahaha did you want that?
or was it an accident party therapy
party therapy
do you feel better now?
maybe you do
or maybe you're looking for a hive
a symbiotic naturally occurring supportive nest bed
for sleeping, if you want to
or being a queen
I know you've got it in you

Fuck you

sip on my watermelon nectar
sit down and watch me
make a fool of myself
singing to JT you cringe while
I'm in my element element basic 00's element
you know you feel it
nodding your head in a secret ashamed guilty groove
my homeless hair swaying
prancing through the fairy air
as we sip gay gordons
through llama and cactus straws
sometimes you cry
and I cry too but we do it together
shut out the backwards falling backwards criminally insane indoctrination nuthouse world
pretend it's not there
for a moment
we exist in this outrageous space
multi-faceted as joseph's coat we pass
through
screaming haemorrhaging gacking fracking
deep the buried joy we'll find
love and joy and togetherness and not giving a shit
we'll know forevermore
because fuck you
depressive black beast always
we'll get you
and shove you deep up your own hollow vacuous rectum
never to return
motherfucker fuck you

The Devil’s Work

How often do you think
a Devil doth lie
and greet you as an angel
just to squeeze into
a soulful pantie
and twist it awful wedgie tight
whilst you holla righteous holy purpose

and how many once courteous
are now finished broken
at the hands of a monster
so belligerent and coy
it's forlorn to tell the difference

it happens so often
by earthen hands
whose aren't so always kniving dastardly
thieving
as monsters proposing as angels
that it must
though you'd never know for sure

Ode to YOU

There are millions of writers

who are better than me

wittier and more expressive than me

almost all of them

in fact

and many more

who should be poets

and don’t know it yet.


But

none of that matters

I love this shit

and one day

if just enough people

can feel me

and I’ve lived just slightly enough

to fill that bar of happiness

every single body seeks

I’ll die the gladdest of men

and hopefully too

will all of you.


Always love,

Your dearest degenerate

Paper Straws

The clouds are a bowl of appropriated

fucking poisoned oatmeal

on sunken hues

of navy blue

and carbonated so carbonated teal

Sucking us further always further into

a storm of which there is no relent

one of fire and flooding

and broken Earthen bones.





But what does it matter

you gotta live your life right?

Drive your car

suck on the lactating tit

of craven consumerism

and nothing beats a factory farmed steak

Right?





Paper straws

You gotta save us

please

we ain’t gonna do it ourselves.

Hot Také

DRiNK

your own melancholy music

pushing pushing you further into a self inflicted pit

of who the fuck

and what and why and when

you’ll be ruler straight

as narrow as a hot wheels track

bending forever round

a preconditioned hairpin

you hope will, one day

straighten out.


Christ bury the shock

the day you realise

you’re going in

endless devastating precipitated circles.

haahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

help us please.


Look upon this plea

and give our spines a wholesome hug

a hug we’ve been begging for

for half a generation, and one

that maybe we can

pass on

beyond our feeble arms.

Haribo

(A guest vibe by June Rayne)

A grand new world inspires you

colours shine so bright

whats and whys you crave for

yet your senses produce fright.

To sit and learn is easy

for those that you call friends

an overwhelmed brain in despair

can only hope it blends.

You listen to her closely

but there’s so much going on;

The walls are full of pictures

and where’s the sunshine gone?

All their eyes are on you

you want to hide or run

but there you sit afraid to move

dreaming of having fun.

Beat me

I am a beat poet

Born eighty years too late.

Introduce me

To Neil Cassady

And Kerouac and William S. Burroughs and beautiful Bukowski.

Induct me into the Dharma Bums.

I’ll sit on a mountain top with you

And visit that higher realm

You always claim to know

If only we’ll never have to leave.

Dancing forevermore to a song

That never will

become as old as us.

Saving Face

Sit on my face

And absorb the madness within my skull

searching for a flow that I can listen to

And be so wildly separate from.

Sit on my face

And witness the beautiful curly haired forever mine undeniable queen

I’m sharing the plains of mist

With.

Dark eyes and a mesmerising dance

Intoxicated

Intoxicated

Intoxicated

Feed me tacos

And a tune that shreds your soul and mine

A drop that sends us both

And a two day bender

That breaks us entwined

Yet holds our outrageous ignorance

In a stunning embrace.

I love you.

Smile

This is a symphony

of love and loss and endless compromise because understanding is the key to sucking on the dummy of companionship forever

give me a crackin’ smiley

it’s really hot and it fucking hurts

yet it’s all we yearn for, kindness and care and a warm intoxicated cuddle at the end of every day

the loving smile

the grace in the face of an action which lends a warm disgrace

amid a subtle understanding of that which made you who you are

a loveable occasionally excrutiating asshole

Dopamine

Sit in the mist and soak up the electric atmosphere surrounding you

X-Ray cancerous pulses of dopamine dopamine dopamine.

Feed me my worth

Sell me back my hooked addicted plugged in out of control soul

For a pittance, if you will.

The fairy’s junky lights are burnt out again

Pass her a hit of me or you or that guy who makes funny videos with his derpy-ass cat.

Our void is becoming one too deep to shine through

She’s almost dust

The empath always dies by our hand or its own in the face of stagnant superficial self-interested desire.

It’s cool though,

It’ll only plague our minds for a second or two

Until the next video drops.

Descend

Descend into the pits of being, you reckless dainty soul. A blinding light before your face does fold unto itself and yank you through an effervescent portal to the higher plane. A place with dancing sprites of every colour, creeping violent broken shades and absurd outrageous landscapes laid out in fractals which twist and grow and pull attention from all that which you came to do.

But push on now, blinkered through a smoke of all you know to be distraction, hunting for the source of soul or the seat of ego it must be scorched forever from this land so you can sit amongst it, awakened from material slumber to the peace of only nothing.

Through the layers of psyche you go, accosting fight or flight and instinctual dread as it tries to tell you NO! Don’t do this you’re going to die you’re going to die please, please, don’t do this don’t do this you’re going to die.

You must.

Blast on through unhinged emotion and tear asunder attachment and aching desperate dreams. Cry your final tear and slice the limbs of pride and longing this spectral being you once aspired to grow and nurture, it’s almost time to be.

Rip away at constricting useless rational webs of who am I and what it is to live and there it is the silver eye of godly crystal awaiting your demise or ascent to high vibration or the crumbling of this box you’re trapped in. You’re here. What next?

Leeches

Stuck in the amber abyss I try to create a picture of something that might catch your attention. A thread of life perhaps, or an action so intense that it wakes up the hairs on the crest of your neck. And yet the curse of individualism will tell most that all that lies in these letters is hopeless impossible ramble. What if I told you that an ever restless soul resides here, screaming under a patchwork of black and blinding white monotony. Aching and writhing, begging you to sit up and notice its twisted dreams and its paranoid self-reflection and its shuddering egotistical genius. Ripping at the seams of this being it dwells in, it longs to bellow sweet nothings until your ear drums burst and it can burrow inside so its crushing voice becomes that which you hear when you tell yourself that everything is not ok even though it could be if we learned to smell which of the leeches is kind for fruitful benevolence and which is merely a disease utilising lifetimes’ worth of beautiful star-born vibration to gain access to resources which are nothing more than collectively enforced bridges to undeserved narciscisstic decadence. Alas, how can we when Truth is lying in a twisted broken pile in the lobby of human conciousness, bearing gushing stab wounds from the selfish and giant great boot marks from corporation issue cover up kicks. Collective Goodwill and Endless Prayer are no match for the Pyschopathic Fucking Syncophant.

.

.

.

Oh, the caves I hide in, cowering beneath the expectation of an unwarranted shakespearean pipe dream.

Table Skit


The Kraken is free and I’m burning his candle. I drank his soul and now I’m melting his body, sealing him Forever. We did it to the skeletons and now they stand as statues all black and white and locked away on our funky juju table cloth.

Next to my black book that’s empty now and the tower that speaks and the stained leather tome that’s almost full but will never be finished.

If only I could filter my shells and wrap them up in sticky paper,

But I need them for burning crop with a Marc on my head

While I toss stones into the water.

Oh, the phonic in my head,

The childish NU: phonic that rattles in my skull.

ΔΔΔ


 

Dogmatic


In the beginning naught did shine but light and hope and clouds they all had lustre,

Then the Journey snuffed it out.

In the beginning there swam free peace conscious and curious lives we hungered,

Then the Journey snuffed it out.

In the beginning both beast and man sweet harmony sang and we fed them and they fed us our joy,

Then the Journey snuffed it out.

In the beginning O’ heavens they were hallowed and unknown too was hallowed though thy name On High unknown,

Then the Journey snuffed it out.

In the beginning there was but green and blue and rustle and trickle and crack and splash all over,

Then the Journey snuffed it out.

In the beginning connected all did feel and balance all knew well,

And then the Journey snuffed it out.


In the end all was bleak exhaust flew through the cracks and poisoned,

The Cycle shall reset you.

In the end there was no peace and wonder was survival dead,

The Cycle shall reset you.

In the end the beasts lay caged or worse and  mania-amaranthine so long beset them,

The Cycle shall reset you.

In the end the heavens all had clogged with hopeless quests to conquer,

Thy name unknown endured.

In the end there was no green or blue just black and endless thunder,

The Cycle shall reset you.

In the end the link it severed and all life fell asunder,

The Cycle shall reset you.

Dogmatic.


 

Courage


When the curtain falls, where will you be?

Probably roasting in the fire with everyone else.

Go on, Give me a nice internal scream,

Maybe the camera will pick up your hopeless twisted despair.

I’ll post an emoji on there that cries with laughter, just to lighten the mood.

There.

Now off it goes to my closest friend.

Oblivion.

 

Turn yourself around, Subject.

Watch your creations disassemble the irrational ambitionism you gave them. Isn’t it beautiful?

For one to return to that from which it was hedonistically ripped. That, is art.

What you’ve done, subconsciously and with robust naivety,

to foster fake meaning and concoct a great poisonous grey matter purpose

in order to get a continuous hit of its alluring fake-peace high.

 

Folly                                                            Folly                                                            Folly

 

The deed is almost complete,

and only when it is shall you see the depths of your own misdirection.

Maybe then you will be worthy of life.

Not that you’ll have enough left to act.


Esnesnon

Grey and black and white and brown the anti’s-rainbow frown delight,

Anti-rain opaque as fate falls on the sky from trees that hang root side up-down-up-down and back oh right?

Spider’s silk don’t stick it slides and Silkyparks are oh so fun for UP you stop and don’t come back,

And anti-flies walk right side down cus uplift’s dead so planes cut ground and Ant’s do scramble anti-fair.

Murder’s life and pregnant’s death so punish much astonish!

Anti-baby Humon 3 does run the Earth but clout has so much doubt,

And war it’s all just kiss and kiss and sandpit sandpit fun.

Lightning hush and thunder shiggle in quite lightheart delight they fiddle,

Push is pull with much confu and books they have no numbers!

Stars are black but anti-white is oh so bright the night is day and girl oh girl! We’re in a right new mental fright,

For all our sdrow and all our sight is right way bront to fack!

The Black and the Bicycles

Bicycles ran as honey over my drums

And our moon did gift goosebumps of gratification

As I thanked her for lighting my way,

Though little did I know of any way.

Sycamores on the skirts

Silhouettes as the space of everything possible to know,

Though not by me.

And a road in the yonder

Blessed with direction but little destination

And lights with no enlight

Beyond the A and the B.

Neither would exist here.

Our moon wandered me to the centre of my black

The artificial glow of secure insecurity shone down the path

In competition with the light of question

And winning for proximity, against the will of its beholder.

The glimmer of all we know does poison all we wish upon

And none I know had witnessed the glow of family

Before the glow of our exploit.

The black and the bicycles did dance with me here

Holding me still and staring in a separate place

Beyond sight and will we remained still and yet forever moving in mind

Together and all alone.

Our moon,

Revered and haloed above the horizon

Had lost her family

Save the greatest persevered

Who would speckle our sky with a limp recollection of its wonderful dance.

And how sad it must be

To reach our Earth and never be seen

To twinkle for life and not one will wish.

The black and the bicycles will mourn with me here

For our lost friends and our lonely family would dance amongst us

If only they were able.